We’ve been in a new cycle of eclipses since early July, although you’d hardly know it. A few people I know experienced notable events in July, but for many, it was strangely quiet.
The “Big Event” solar eclipse of July 21 was a degree shy of my Descendant, so you’d think I’d have been one of the people to feel it. If it made a blip on my radar screen, I’ve forgotten already. Eclipses often take 30 days to deliver results, but I didn’t notice any major developments then, either. What gives?
Well, it appears that these eclipses either are late bloomers or need some time to build up steam. And that seems to be happening now.
To refresh your memory, the eclipses were in Aquarius and Leo starting in February 2008. The last in this series occurred on August 5. Meanwhile, the new series, in Capricorn and Cancer, began with a lunar eclipse on July 7, followed by the total solar eclipse at 29 degrees Cancer two weeks later.
Two key astrological events are acting as triggers that may set the energy of this new eclipse series in play. So if, like me, you didn’t feel much of anything, you may start feeling the delayed reaction soon, if you haven’t already.
Mars, which often acts as a trigger when he passes key degrees, currently is in Cancer. On September 20, he crossed the degree of the lunar eclipse on July 7. On October 12, he’ll activate the second eclipse. This is an important date, as it’s also the day that Jupiter returns direct. Individually and collectively, we can expect major movement around this date.
We likely won’t have to wait that long, though, because there’s a Full Moon on October 3, the 90-day point, or square to the July 7 eclipse. Mercury will be direct by then, too, and things tend to get moving again when the Messenger comes out of a retrograde phase.
Personally, I’ve felt a shift this summer. Externally, it’s barely detectable, but the picture is coming into greater focus. Inwardly, there has been an enormous change. Whether it’s related to the new series of eclipses, the old one (more likely), or other factors doesn’t seem to matter. In many ways, it seems that the changes taking place over the past several months are part of a bigger trend that began many years ago — in other words, just details.
But these details make all the difference in the world.
Much love and courage to all,
Image: Port After Stormy Seas, an allegorical work by Pre-Raphaelite painter Evelyn De Morgan, 1905.
My July was pretty overwhelming because the first eclipse squared both my Libra Moon AND my husband’s Aries Moon. In his case, it triggered a natal Moon-Saturn opposition, forming a grand cross with the Moon in his 10th & the Sun in his 4th.
So far, Mars crossing the eclipse points has been pretty low-key and as far as I’m concerned, it can just stay that way. Enough is enough! Mars in Cancer squaring my Libra planets makes me cranky. :-)
This summer was fun but also stressful. This was the summer that I turned 40 and it hurts. It hurts to think about the life that I have and that I could’ve had if only I had made the right choices.
Today I feel like I’m running out of time. I’m supposed to go to synagogue for Yom Kippur tonight and tomorrow and I don’t know if I’ll be able to be around all those newly pregnant ladies and all those babies without feeling that tremendous sorrow that it’s too late for me to have those things that I so wanted and yearned for. It’s not envy exactly, maybe it’s self-pity, I don’t know. But I’m getting sick and tired of feeling like I’m pressing my nose against the window, witnessing a lovely banquet that I can’t partake in. This week especially I’ve been seeing pregnant women everywhere; in fact, one morning this week I was even late to work because my train was stopped due to a woman going into labor. I wasn’t angry, it made me kinda happy that if I was going to be late, it was because of that. I’m happy for my friends who are pregnant or who have kids. But just once, I’d like to be happy for me, too.
And then this week, the guy I was seeing basically dropped out of the map and I am overwhelmed with a sensation of abandonment and of feeling like an asshole for letting myself get so starry-eyed over someone. I’m surprised at the depth of my emotions and of my sorrow; but really I shouldn’t be. It’s a replay of what happened in my childhood and something I keep reenacting: my birth father was very involved with me until I turned 7 when he suddenly inexplicably dropped out of my life. This was partly due to my maternal grandmother’s machinations but either way, ultimately he was weak and wasn’t there. And so from my thirties onward, that’s what happened with me and men. They’re rather taken with me for a while and then, wham! They stop responding. And I never know why, which hurts even more.
Seriously, everywhere I go this week, I get my nose rubbed in all the things I wanted that seem to be off-limits. Whoever’s writing this plot is getting a little heavy-handed.
Well, Neith, since you already got the full wallop of these eclipses, I doubt you’ll get more. I was thinking more of folks like myself who got through those aspects with barely a blip.
Eme, sometimes getting our noses rubbed in hurtful things such as you describe is our heart/mind screaming for our attention. It’s useful information, and hardly surprisign given Mercury retrograde and the factors I mentioned in this post. You can work with these energies.
Among other things, it IS possible to make a concerted effort to get past the “starry eyed” response. It’s so hard to let go of, I know. But it can be done. You are still so young. There are lots of ways to get what you need, even though it may not be in the way you always expected or wanted. I highly recommend a reading with a professional astrologer whose approach is helping you understand how to work with the energies that are in play.
I have to say I’ve had one of the hardest years of my life, certainly the first half of the year, I’m coming out of the ‘darkness’ now but heck its been hell.
Was it the eclipses? The last one squared my Sun yet most of the ‘doo that hit the fan’ hit earlier in the year (Feb). The fall out has started to ease off now.
It was with my partner & I, infidelity, well I look back now and out of the chaos has come some amazing stuff but if I were to order change next time, I’d ask for something a little nicer = easier and less painful. Pain I have never felt in my life, wowee!
Thing is, I feel as if all the pain was in my anyway, what this did was to tap it off.
I’m happy to be through this, I am grateful for the healing that has come through such release of pain, but I feel many many people are going through leaps and bounds in their consciousness/growth, esp the first half of this year. In fact I don’t know anyone who hasn’t gone through some huge shift!
Love as always xxx
A woman went into labor today in synagogue. I guess my heart/mind is telling me that I really want to be a mother. That makes me sad in the context of what happened this weekend. My lesson is that I have to learn that I’m not a very good judge of character when it comes to love so I have to be extra extra careful. I’m still reeling with pain. I guess I should be grateful that this came to a head so very fast.
Oh, I forgot, I’ve had many readings with astrologers and the upshot is to be creative (which I am) and that I’m going to get the things I want in the end but, frankly, I’m losing faith. Thanks, Pat.
Can I put just one more update? I had a revelation as a result of all this and I’m considering it a gift. I suddenly understood everything I’d been doing wrong in relationships all my life and it was like the sky opened up and the little birds tweeted and the angels are singing. No, seriously. It’s like that.
Nope, sorry, Eme, no more updates.
Of course we’re glad to hear of your epiphany. Trust me, I know exactly what you mean. Astrologically, the timing is right, so run with it!
It’s going to sound very trite but it was news to me, honest! And the world changed.
Okay, so here’s some background: I’ve got a 9HPisces Moon square 12HVenus in Gemini and opposite 3HPluto in Virgo. You could say I was a relationship addict. Came from an abusive background in which the family taught me to always settle for being the victim–I actually thought I was being good by always settling for crap! Seriously, it was weird. I’ve had relationships since the time I was 14 and maybe in those 26 years I’ve been single for a total of 5 years. I was also always making compromises and feeling resentful. In my mind, I really thought that having a relationship and having my needs met was a contradiction. In other words, I truly thought that there was no other way to have a relationship but to constantly give up what I wanted or without giving in. And I would go overboard with being generous and loving, etc. and was absolutely baffled when the other person refused to take into consideration if something hurt me or if something bothered me or if I had a simple request. It was awful. Okay, so fast-forward to this guy from a month ago. He pops into my life and I immediately think he’s fantastic and loving and I begin being very loving and affectionate and giving which is something that he remarks on, saying, Wow, I could get addicted to all this loving. And then one night he shows up drunk at 3am telling me that he is crazy about me, that he wants to be with me 24/7, etc. Okay, so I decide that it’s okay for me to go with it since he’s being so open. I do notice that there’s a bit of a problem in bed since he’s not responding to me (ahem) but I figure I’d bring it up when I get to know him better. Okay, and he’s responsive, etc. and then all of a sudden, he’s not. And I get a weird feeling but I’m overwhelmed with stuff at work so I don’t think about it too much. Then I call him and HE NEVER CALLS ME BACK. A couple of days go by and I’m really pissed off (as I posted here). Finally, I email him telling him that it’s okay if he doesn’t want to see me but that it’s cowardly and hurtful to ignore my calls. At which point he emails me back that he can totally see why I’m angry but that there was no romantic or sexual chemistry so he’d rather be friends. He hopes I understand.
And I’m like, Huh? So I email him basically calling him to task for taking me on an emotional ride, etc. Okay, so here’s the epiphany (finally): People don’t know your worth. They don’t know your value. You have to make your value known. That’s the thing about Venus in a tough aspect to Pluto and the Moon. Oh, there might be a couple of people who have been through the wringer and who are mature enough to understand your value as a person, how loving and how great you are, etc. But those people are few. So, it is up to ME to let people know exactly how valuable I am and the key is: take them to task when they go wrong and making absolutely sure that I enforce my boundaries, no exception. This guy was very adorable and charming so when he called me at 3am, yes, I was pissed but I was also charmed out of my anger. So that immediately cheapened me in his eyes. I cheapened myself. You have to educate people, just like those guys on the Antiques Roadshow who lecture the little old lady that, hey, that piece of junk you were so ready to sell for 15 cents in your garage sale is actually worth millions. This guy had a bit of an inkling about my worth but since I devalued myself by letting him get away with unacceptable behavior, he immediately stopped valuing me. He lost interest. I was easy, not sexually, because we actually never had sex, but emotionally. And in a not entirely honest way he didn’t take full responsibility for the weird lack of sexual chemistry (which I had to remind him about in my email was not lacking when he was drunk). If I didn’t know any better, I could’ve said to myself, Hey, I’m 40 and I’m not as attractive so who can blame him? But I was getting stares on the train today and it was obvious a lot of guys wanted to engage me so I was all, Mmmm, that’s not it. So that’s my epiphany.
(I mean, my epiphany being that you have to let people know what you’re worth because it’s human nature to push others around. It just is. And it’s my responsibility to tell them, Exactly who do you think you are? I’m a human being and I demand you treat me with respect and if you won’t, I’ll cut you out of my life.)
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Eme, is this the Scorpio you’re talking about? I pretty much went through the same experience this past year, and while I agree with your analysis about valuing yourself, your not having done so is not an excuse for him to behave like a donkey’s arse.
I am sick of self-help relationship advice out there (in general, not yours!) basically making it the woman’s responsibility to make sure the man behaves. So in order for him to do the right thing you have to assert your rights, do this, that and the other? Pah! If he didn’t respect them in the first place, he didn’t deserve you.
Welcome to freedom, Eme. Leave him to his little self-formed prison.